I’m sorry to everyone who knows me. I couldn’t be what you wanted. I can’t be your inspiration… I’m exhausted. Life was rough…

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Birthday

My Dad recently told my niece that I’m turning 36 tomorrow. I’m not. I’m turning 39 in a few hours. But his explanation to my 9 year old niece was that “women aren’t supposed to turn 40.” What does that even mean??? All I heard was that I should end my life before I turn 40.

But I worry more about what my niece heard. I can’t stand that he is allowed to even know them.

Less than human… Yeah… That about sums up how I feel. I don’t want to keep going through this. I’m so lost and I really don’t know who to trust. I don’t understand why people care and I guess I’m afraid of it.

I would like to lay around all day eatting chocolate and watching The Crown but I am being pressured to go out to dinner.

Be careful?

Tw

A friend asked if I’m ok.

In more words than this, I said I am going to hurt myself once he leaves and friend said to be careful.

Not the answer I expected. I know… I shouldn’t have expectations. My bad. I was just reminded of this too.

It’s fine…I’m fine. And I’m sorry…