It doesn’t matter

I wish I could find somewhere url to turn but there is nothing for me. God why am I so weak? Is be so much better off dead. Well everyone around me would. But I am a pathetic weakling. It could be so much better for those I love most to be released from the burden that is me. God please release me from this cruel life!

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3 thoughts on “It doesn’t matter”

  1. I wish I could tell you something that would actually cure those feelings of unworthiness and change your attitude when it comes to how you see yourself, but I’d be a hypocrite if I gave you advice because I struggle with the same things! I am in constant attack mode when it comes to myself and I wish it would just stop. But one thing I do know is that, even if you have little faith or don’t believe in God at all, you are so worth living and one day, whether it be days or years, you will be okay. And you are loved. Please just know that you are not better off dead 😦

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  2. I know what it’s like to feel worthless and weak, to feel that I am a burden to others. I know what it’s like to want it all to just go away. It has taken me years to learn to love myself, though I don’t always find that possible. It is a daily struggle to believe that I am a worthwhile human being. But I have gotten stronger over the years. I am confident that you will also find your inner strength to help you cope. I am sure that you are loved, though at times it might not feel that way. I wish you could find one person whom you could trust enough to share your thoughts and feelings. Please know that you have my support and understanding, and that you have a family of fellow survivors here who share your pain.

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  3. You are brave to reach out and write your true feelings. I encourage you to keep doing that.
    There is so much inside yourself to explore, to learn to appreciate, and to share with others.
    Your strength brought you this far, so you are stronger than you realize.
    So many gift lie inside waiting to be opened. The voices of others in your past need to be quieted to hear your own. You can cultivate your voice to be more gentle and loving but it does take work. I am 64 and am just learning this!

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