I’m not as strong as others. I don’t know why. I just know that survivor blogs show people who were resilient and mentally strong. I don’t know how to process the memories. And the flashbacks.
I hope that i dont have to admit to everything that was done in order to feel ok. I am stuck. i try to play a game or play music or anything to occupy my thoughts but i am not able to keep my mind off of “it”. I wonder if im sick for thinking about it so much. I hate it. I dont want to think about it. It’s suffocating me.