Why lonely?

I have a good husband. I vent about our issues but if I put everything here, you’d probably understand that he’s a saint taking care of his disabled wife. Most of our communication problems come from my anxiety. He asks me what’s wrong all of the time and I almost always reply “nothing” or “I hurt” but I let him assume it is just the physical stuff. I can’t tell him. I told him bits and pieces now. He knows there was sexual abuse going on but I can’t admit when it’s upsetting me. He can tell when I have a flashback. Something to do with my face… But I don’t want him to know.

I love him so much but this piece of my life must stay seperate. I’m too embarassed. I feel very alone. It all hurts like hell. I’m alone with these memories…

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