To my brother

I can’t understand why you let your daughters around our dad. You know what he’s capable of. You know what he did. Even if they’re never alone, he’s toxic! He told your daughter that my birthdays go in reverse now because “women don’t turn 40” and she asked me follow up questions!

I don’t know what’s going on with you lately but I hope it’s starting to get to you. I don’t blame you really… You’re only 4 years older than me. Plus you’ve always been protective of me otherwise. But it still hurts…what you did to me. I still love you. I don’t think you meant to cause me pain. I know he was hurting you too.

I hate him for making us watch when he was bad. I don’t have any bad feelings for you. I just wish you could understand what you’re doing…what you’re saying… When you let your 3 beautiful girls near that man. Your youngest daughter/my goddaughter! is the age I was when our father took my innocence. I know you think your system is fool proof but you’re teaching those girls that he’s trustworthy. They should be taught to not trust him. They should not think he is good!!! I feel like you are dismissing the abuse dad put us through. Your denial could hurt your kids…it is definitely hurting me.