Session 6

This one was so hard. I have been home for an hour. I hurt everywhere. This is not my usual chronic pain. I feel confused and tired and sad and alone. I can’t explain it.

I think I told her a lot but maybe a normal person wouldn’t. I feel this appointment in a severe way and I don’t know why. Why do I hurt everywhere?

I told her what a guy I met when I was a homeless teen did to me but I barely said any words. I said enough words and she asked me questions. I am so confused by how I feel right now but I am surprised that I was able to tell her this. I just wish I could do it better. My appointment ended 2 hours ago but I’m shaking and I feel so overwhelmed.

But I also feel proud for acgknowldging what that guy did.

I want a new body.

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2 thoughts on “Session 6”

  1. I’m proud of you. That took a tremendous amount of trust, vulnerability, and courage, to tell your counselor about what happened to you. Try not to worry about how you feel physically. Trauma is often trapped in the body. You’re simply connecting with your pain. Try to be gentle with yourself and do things that are soothing, like taking a warm bath or doing some light stretching exercises. You’re doing great!

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