There is no rest for me. Flashbacks in the day and nightmares in my sleep. I can’t escape these memories. My stomach is in so much pain. I’m so overwhelmed. I’m so alone. I thought I would be better by now. This isn’t going away. I don’t know why I survived so much just to be disabled and homebound. I’m a burden on society. People in my country think I’m just a “taker” yet it is seen as unacceptable to give up. Trapped as a burden… Tortured by memories. I want to sleep forever…without any nightmares.