Last night was my seventh counseling appointment at the rape crisis center and I have noticed a pattern. I think.
I have a long list of medical conditions… Many of them cause chronic pain.
Broken vertebrae T12 – 5 year bone scan still fractured.
Diabetic neuropathy in my legs, feet, arms, and hands
Carpal tunnel x2
Tendonitis in both elbows
Bursitis in my knee
Arthritis -very early and mild
Plantar fasciitis x2
Trigger finger x3
Chronic pelvic pain
I think that’s all of the pain stuff.
Every week that I’ve had peer counseling, I wake up with a bad flare the next day. I feel like my body is filled with poison and it is stinging my every nerve. I am currently tapering off my pain meds. It has been a long and difficult process. In 2012 I was on a 75mcg/hour fentanyl patch and 250 mg methadone daily. I’m currently on only 10 mg methadone a day. This is so hard but it is for the sake of my gastroparesis/nausea. (The nausea isn’t gone, but I don’t throw up every day anymore!).
Maybe this is unrelated. Maybe I’m wrong about this pattern but I don’t think so.
Some of the pain triggers icky memories… I told my counselor about this pelvic pain problem. Took me 4 failed tries and I finally told her. I’m kind of proud of myself for that but I’m embarassed to admit it.